the cage has been ordered
just now, as per Madam’s demand.
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a cage has been decided
i won’t be ordering it just yet, for money reasons, but it won’t be long as it’ll take two months to arrive.
after some consideration, Madam has chosen not to include spikes in the cage. this is, of course, correct because that’s what she has chosen.
if she keeps me caged
then, as damn fine and lovely as my cock is when it’s hard, it actually is small while it’s in locked inside a cage. which actually gives meaning to all the small penis humiliation she seems to be very into and is, in turn, that slim risk a
expression of lust
i’d like to know if Madam wants any expression from me. initially, i was just thinking about expressions of lust, given the about face from Nyx who ruled that i must share every single time i was wet and wanted to hear every want and desire, and that every
i’m done speaking out of turn
alright, i‘m done speaking out of turn. the only time i should speak is when Madam asks me a question, and when i answer a question, i only answer with, with no unasked or excessive detail.
she’s corrected me and now i’ve finally learned.
some interesting conceptual attitude
* my classical pleasure is an insult to her.
* her pleasure is my only acceptable pleasure.
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object
in object in everyth conceivable way.
* objects can't feel pain, so mine isn't real
* objects can’t feel the cold so mind isn’t real.
* shame, desire, wants and needs,
i fucked up
one of my rules is that all fetlife activity requires permission. yesterday, i somehow managed to like a post whilst swiping through my phone. i didn't even use fet yesterday except incidentally through that swiping. or, i can’t remember using it. so Madam was very angry with
old habits
all of my past dommes have had a rule where i must share every filthy thought and idea i have. Madam, on the other hand, doesn’t want to hear anything. but the habit is still there so i can jot them down here if they’re novel.
a permanently
she keeps me quiet
she truly does not care what i have to say. moreover, she detests hearing it. speaking my mind makes her angry. i am to be quiet, respectful and obedient.