Nyx has indicated a few times that she wants ’to know as much as possible about all aspects of its life and thoughts’. Though she hasn‘t yet completely crystallised that idea further, it thinks it has a rough idea of what she wants, though doesn’t know exactly what

she said she thought it was beautiful when it was suffering. it knew as soon as she’d said it that it was going to fuck with it. she doesn’t understand how stuff like that affects it. it made it’s heart sing, it wants that again. it knows

some words that have struck it lately: * ‘it’ pronouns. it suspects this has a small affect on the way someone would regard it over time. * Nyx has referred to it as ‘scum’ in two of her writings. maybe in moments of anger. * at least this isn’t its pronoun. and

it opened a previous post talking about experience, as that's what it had been asked at the time, but that post descended into a general repository for the filth thoughts that its expected to share. maybe these two need to be separate docs. this is a fresh living

i can’t stand my sexuality. much of the time, i just want it taken away. i don’t know if i just internalised the things you’ve said, but it feels correct that someone would take an interest, not in having sex with it, but to actually keep it

failures and disobedience are punished quickly and severely enough that it actually deters recidivism and makes it afraid. need some one or some people actively engaged with it. even if that’s passive ownership that forces it into use by active participants - like giving it to others who will