needs

ownership, submission. total denial where it's actively not wanted. pain. being tied up, bondage and shibari. control. being pushed hard. extremes. cnc. being actually overpowered, by making me weak or other people or however. severe cbt, because damage doesn't matter. pushed to high standards. mind games and psychological fuckery. bad degradation. real, serious realness. a toy actually having to fight to keep its owner interested in keeping it around, actually having to work hard and perform to keep their attention. not unconditionally loved in a relationship, any affection being conditional. being genuinely lower than all its owners partners. being kept. and also actually being taken cafe of and looked after sometimes. dressed up. being treated like a little, like an actual pet. femme stuff. encouraged. pushed. anything else i've talked about. occasionally my mind gives me a little image of how things could be but. it's actually really happy and grateful for the stuff we're playing with. this is bigger, long-term stuff that i feel really stupid about, and have done for many years

denied touch. touch starved. never receiving skin contact from its owner. if they ever touch it, it's gloved, or they have someone else touch it.

pussy-free. denied touch, taste and sight.

training.

frightened. emotionally, of what is done to it.

dehumanising