it can't stand its sexuality

updated post published previously

it can’t stand its sexuality. much of the time, it knows it just need it taken away. it feels correct that someone would take an interest, not in having sex with it, but to actually keep it locked in spikes so that it’s forced to avoid arousal. forced to not think about what’s between its legs. to quite literally have desire replaced with pain. a pain bad enough so as to avoid both.
it feels like a weight would be lifted off its shoulders. it doesn't want this. this responsibility. it wants to experience someone taking that control and responsibility and not worrying that they’ll ever give it what its body wants. someone that enjoys taking it, and genuinely doesn't want it.
multiple times, the toy has nearly paid a pro-domme to force it to purchase the most intense set of spikes and hold the keys.

replacing its sexuality

a Top could use this to their own selfish ends, if they wanted, by replacing its sexuality with their own for their benefit such that there is no overlap. for example, using it to fuck men for entertainment, degradation, or in search for men for themselves. could be something like this:

• make it explicitly clear what it no longer has and what it is for now, remind it regularly. make it believe it. no distractions.
• make it understand explicitly that the toy is only to think and act for their pleasure and the pleasure of their friends and partners, not for its own. the toy’s desire and pleasure no longer exists.
• this is enforced. even small strays from this are punished.
• this cannot co-exist with allowing it to hope for sex with the Top. replacing the toy’s sexuality with hers necessarily means anytime it feels/expresses its own sexuality, it is disobedience and selfish disrespect; they are mutually exclusive.
• correcting a toy’s mind like this is active and take energy, either by the Top or by third-parties acting on her behalf. with priorities established, the toy can be expected to give guidance on this though.